The World's Lost Its Mind ...

Jesus, I haven't felt like this in awhile. My friends are awesome, even though I may beg to differ below, and the world is a wonderful place to be (well, sometimes) but its honestly and completely gone to hell. I hate to know what my future and, for that fact, how the future of my entire generation are going to survive, people f*cking up the environment and all.

The world's just going to hell. The last time I can imagine something of this magnitude would have to be back during The Great Depression ... ice caps melting, oil lines busting, Mideast Crises, North Korean menace, and just rampant violence and warfare everywhere. And the world isn't the only place people are going crazy.

My friends are, too, I'm afraid to say.

Jade's pretty awesome. Honestly. He may defend himself to the point of insulting others to his own expense, and he may pass off his facade to keep up his pride, but he's actually pretty weak. Not in a bad way, but just not as badass as he may try to pass off. One minute he may be extremely useful and helpful (like he usually is), though there're sometimes when he's just so annoying, be it insult or ... I don't think there's a word for it. He drives me (and others) so insane that we completely block / mute / ignore him.

Larry's been really helpful. Aside from the fact that we aren't going to the same school together ... we miss you Larry. =(

Chris's been ... well, his usual self. We may crack jokes over him as if he were just some sort of toy to us, but in the end (whether he gets pissed off or just passes over it like it were nothing) I don't think any of us mean any harm over it. I've actually begun to confront people (such as Jade and others) who've been passing derogatory comments about me my way. I won't put up with that sh*t anymore. I have no reason to. Even though Chris threw a little temper tantrum today and completely ignored his friends (Larry, Jade, Luke, and I) and his own girlfriend ... TWICE ... I assume there has to be some good reason behind it. I doubt it was just a retarded ploy for attention.

And now, fairly recently, he's been using an "I-get-the-last-word-before-we-move-on-to-the-next-subject" kind of ploy to get out of arguments that are in his favor. Christian, if you're actually reading this -- realize that that doesn't even work on anybody near you and won't be working on anybody in the future. Don't start the argument or back out of it, don't speak like your word's the constant truth and then delve off-subject. It's annoying, ignorant, and childish.

Chris's girlfriend, Lorin, is crazy. Psychotic. I dunno what she's had in her past, and she actually seems quite ... nice? Well, that is if you answer all her questions right. I dunno how Chris handles her. She's way too insane for me. She's crazy. Period. Stone-cold.f*cking.nuts. She'd probably handle that as a compliment, and Chris won't listen to reason when we warn him she's crazy. It's about 7 people versus his word. He must think he's Jesus, 'cause he's shooting our ideas down and claiming himself to be a savior. If he won't heed our word, I guess he'll just have to wake up next to a psycho someday and think "Damn, why didn't I listen to those guys?"

I owe a personal apology to two of the following people --

Luke -- I know we all make fun of you, and although you act like it doesn't tear you down, you usually glide over ALL comments thrown your way (much like Christian does over the jokes we throw his way) I know it's a bad thing to do and I do it anyway. I'm gonna try to stop acting like a total jackass to you and anybody else I know. 'Try's a very strong term, but I advise all of you guys who're doing what I do think twice about insulting him and try a new strategy much like I am. I mean it.

"Theheretic" AKA "Guntith" AKA "Rotithan" (WoW) -- I know I took your Searing Blade as that 20 gold payment you owed me, and Luke and I had a blast doing it, but in the end I feel awful bad about it ... I'll try to make it up somehow, trust me. I just ... work in mysterious ways. Yeah, that's it. Mysterious.

Well, back to the world -- Israel and Hezbollah *have* been back at it again ... launching rockets, marching troops ... can you believe they're killing many people, blowing up many buildings, and invading many towns ... over two kidnapped soldiers? People I know suggest we just draw the Hezbollah leaders out to some area and then, city or not, nuke the place. But where's the humanity in that? Yeah, of course we'd kill Israel's target (assuming the U.S. has to intervene), but is it worth the radioactive fallout flooding all the nearby towns?

Hah, you might think I'm "goth" or "emo" because of the attitude I have towards many things. Of course I'm not. I've never actually acted out or even contemplated suicide. I don't mutilate my body, cut myself, or anything of the sort. I like the color black, but I don't wear makeup and act "goth". Of course I don't. Maybe dark, but certainly not "goth". You people who make assumptions make wrong ones and need to consult them more than once.

Mm ... and now my dad's even been pestering me about stupid, various little things I've forgotten to do and such ... and it's really starting to piss me off.

The world's becoming insane and retarded ... locally and globally ... and it's really making me angry; I dunno how to vent it -- it's been awhile since I've seethed like this.

Scary.

--"Reaper"